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 The headmaster of the high school which i attended once told me that the most important thing for a would-be successful student was AMBITION.

  At that moment i had already known i was not the kind.

  Recently i've found more and more evidence which convinced me that it is true.

  Not only my apathy for ambitious plans----but also a hate for an abstract process called "Involvement".  Very psychological.
  I'll go for a retrospective trip in which i can tell the willingness from reluctance or the real feeling from pretended courtesy.

  I'll learn to forsake compromise. It means a return to what i truely believe in.