I have not choice but to tell my mum about buying the contact lens matter...
and she scold me for that... well, i can't blame her.. it was me the one that hide this matter..

she can make me feel guilty everytime.. even though i am not in the fault...

i am thankful that god give me such an understanding mother...
when she scold me today... i tell myself.. " no matter what, i won't cries! i have to be strong!"

and out of sudden, she told me...

"I'm always very proud of you as my daughter.. really, i 've been telling everyone that my daughter is very nice.. she told me every single things of her owns.. and now.. what you did to me? even this kind of matter you also wants to hide? how many times you wants to break my heart? the 0 i still have not pay that person back yet.. and you choose to spend money on useless stuffs? and what if the contact len is not suitable for you? it have not been registered in Singapore... if it is safe to use, then why not Sinapore approve it? and if you hurt yours eye or make it blind.. who do you think it will suffer? you and us.. we have to pay money for you to cure it! it is not the matter of money... it is the matter of .. we WILL WORRY! DID YOU EVER THINK OF US BEFORE YOU DO ANYTHINGS?! THE ANSWER IS NO!! next time if you are going to leave the home... THINK TWICE!! who grow you up? "

and alots.. and I started crying..

i cherish my family alots! even though soemtimes, i might be giving atittude problem toward them... and did serious mistake in my life.. but they forgive me not matter wad happen..

i really can't understand why sometime ppl tend to hate their parent... even for small matter... they just don't cherish! yes.. i know they are some family are not! but most of them, YES!

and bitching about how their parent treat them.. SO? if you think that they mistreat you.. take the chances to show to them that YOU CARES! no matter wad result you get from.. it is the matter of did you do it right from your heart? are you doing it just to get somethings in return?

forget it! the more i say, the more angry i get... l0l!